cheerfully upbeat

SO I dont know if its been the sunshine, the melting snow, the clean clothes, or the extra oxygen I am getting due to the lack of cigarettes, but I have been in an extremely good mood. I am trying to just go with it, but its been four good days in a row. I want to trust it, so I think I am going to. Thats all for now...

CEO

I have not...

1) opened m curtains in my living room for over three weeks mainly for 2 reasons: a) I do not want to see the snow and b) I dont want the townspeople of PK to see how I live. I feel like if someone from the village were to walk into my house right now, that I would be doing Americans around the globe a grave disservice. Its not like I don't clean, b/c hey, I really do. Every Monday is clean the house day. Its just th days in between that it gets really messy again. I don't know... maybe I am just a typical 25 y/o bachelor who is living on his own for the first time. All I know is that I need to step up this up a notch and just be a bit more responsible.

2) gotten out of bed so far today. This is why I love Wednesdays.. only one class and its not until 2:30. Although today, I have an English lesson with one of my friends here at his place (i.e. his parent's place) at 7:00 or 8:00... this is about as specific as he would get when I asked what time he wanted to meet... I hope he meant at night...

3) exercised since Ingrid left. Yeah... the only excuse there is the snow, but even then I have had no excuse to let my body athropy to this point. I am just loose skin and bones right now. I need to build some freakin muscle before summer. Just something... I still cannot believe that I have lost like 80lbs... now its time to tone what's left.

4) Bought my plane tickets to Brussels... that needs to happen. ASAP.

5) smoked a cigarette in 24 hrs. This is the first 24 hours of my cigarette free life. It kills me to think that I only have a few adult friends in this wourld who have known me since before I started smoking. I don't wanna be a smoker. Smoking is really gross and I am tired of wasting my money on slow suicide. I NEED TO BE HEALTHY!!!!

For all of you wondering why I am saying all this on a public forum, its really b/c I need help motivating myself to do these things. Like for reals, yo. Some days I can, but others I can't. So if any of you folks out there would like to help, just leave me a comment or write on my facebook... I still check it occasionally. And finally, here is a really cute picture of my 7lb ferocious puppy! He is too much....

LLM,

CEO

In the bleak mid-winter

Have you ever had that dream where you are really sick and some one starts beating on your window and tells you that you have to come to school and teach English to Bulgarians even though its Wednesday and you aren't supposed to have class until 2:30 in the afternoon? Yeah, me neither, but this morning it became my reality. There is so much snow right now the bus could not make it here from Bjala and thus the 3 teachers who live in the village (myself included) got to teach all the classes this morning. I dont know why we just didnt cancel school, but so is life. It really isn't a problem, it was just an awful way to be woken up. My students laughed at me because the very first thing I said when I arrived in class was "I am sick and I was asleep 5 minutes ago. If you don't want a dvoiki you will sit down and not talk." Except it was sleep-slurred and in Bulgarian. I would have laughed at me too. We ended up playing M*A*S*H* for a while followed by hangman, categories and other time filling activities as I tried to gain my bearings. Over all it was a very confusing, mildly medicated, blur of happenings which luckily ended recently. At least I will know that this is a possibility tomorrow and can be somewhat more prepared.

This would have not been an issue if it were not for this wretched snow. I have been reading blogs from friends who live in the south saying how its just beginning to snow there. To them, I send an invite to the north where the glistening white has been blinding us for months as it chokes the life out of the ground below. The landscpe is one of shrubbery zombies who have some how clawed their way from their icy graves and are now slowly crawling over the frozen tundra that is Polsko Kosovo. Dramaitc, maybe, but nonetheless true. I cannot wait much longer until the day I can awake and see any color besides white. Come on spring. I know you won't let me down! For now, I am going to back to bed and will hopefully have a peaceful, uninterupted slumber. And when I wake, maybe I will find all the snow has gone and my dream of spring will have come true.

LLM,
CEO

The time has come...

to use this blog as I originally intended to use it; as a venue to highlight the good part(s) of my day.

1) At 3:00 this morning, as I lie awake filled with emotion from my mini Amazing Race Marathon, I heard a noise that I thought I would never here again. It started as a slow trickle and then became a thunderous gushing... you guessed it, my hot water pipes unfroze and are now flowing. Excitement does vey little justice to describe the over-whelming joy that rushed over me. Praise the Lord!

2) None of my students hate me for failing them, or if they do, they haven't been acting like it.

3) I am about to try and make peach banitsa... I am scared, but not as scared as my colleagues will be when I make them taste test it tomorrow.

4) I am really happy that my best BG friend, Malena, and her family, are ok after a pretty bad car accident this weekend. She and her husband are going to spend a little more time at the hospital but over all, they will be ok. She is the Biology teacher at my school and my occasional BG tutor.

5) One of my 8th Graders called Lady Gaga a travesty today, which in itself is funny... then my class proceded to tell me he meant transvestite... which is still funny.

Yeah.. thats it for now... BANITSA TIME followed by a hot shower and a meeting with the Mayor. I WILL BE PRODUCTIVE TODAY!!!!

LL&M,
CEO

so its been over a month and basically what I have learned is I complain alot. Some of its warranted but most of it my whining is not. Yeah, winter sucks, but overall I am loved and am pretty content with my life. Once the weather changes, hopefully so will my crappy mood. Not saying that this experience is easy, but man, a shitty attitude doesn't help.

CEO

A Walk I Should Remember More Often

Today, thanks to the all-power, unrelenting facebook "suggestions", I came across an alumni group for my high school. Seeing how I am already a member of various high school alumni groups, I thought I would check this one out to see if I was missing anything. I am really glad I did. There were videos from this years homecoming parade (the 50th anniversary) and apparently we went to the playoffs for the first time since 1992. I used to lead that parade as head drum major and I played half time at those games. What made me happiest was the link to the choir page.

On this page they have posted some audio clips and the first two songs happened to be two songs that I have performed. One I performed in Notre Dame in Paris and the other both at Carnegie Hall and at a church outside Ground Zero also in New York. This got me thinking about the past seven years and how I have spent them. I have been lucky enough to perform at the White House, travel Europe singing and studying music and now I am living in a foreign country teaching English. I just think its amazing what I have gotten to do since graduating college. It kinda excites me for the next 50 years of my life because I dont want stop these experiences now. Lets see what happens. Bye for now!

CEO

*Sorry I wasn't focused on this....

Thanksgiving BG Style

As I mentioned in my last post, this weekend I was to host a little Thanksgiving gathering with some other volunteers and some people from my village. It was a stressful week but everything came together thanks to my wonderful community and the support of my fellow PCVs. I especially want to thank Emmy and Jesse for everything they did. Emmy = Culinary Rockstar and Jesse = all around bad-ass.

Now about the actual event. Let me first say that this was my very first time ever having hosted this particular holiday and I don't think it could have gone better. My only regret is that I misplaced my camera, so I am relying on facebook to document this day. The guest list was originally supposed to be about 6 or so volunteers and we would eat at my house, all sitting around the table Norman Rockwell style. I then had the thought to invite a few Bulgarians as well such as my CP and my director. Imagine my surprise when I checked the facebook event list to see that 18 volunteers were wanting to come to my place for Thanksgiving. Ok, we will just have to sleep really close and I would just buy some extra plates and silverware, No problem... until in our staff meeting the director decided to invite the entire faculty. UMMM... yeah. I was now looking at having to serve around 30 people all in my rustic country cottage. There was just no way. So, with my counterpart, we went to a local cafe and asked if we could use here facility for a few hours and that everyone would buy drinks from her. Thankfully she agreed and seemed happy to do so. It really worked out because its always been a secret dream of mine to have Thanksgiving with a disco ball. With a larger venue I decided to invite a few more people including the Mayor, the Diretor of the Chitaliste, the Director of the Kindergarten and a neighbor or two. Everyone said they would bring food and/or wine and it turned out great. There ended up being 16 Americans (one was Emmy's friend traveling Europe) and 15 Bulgarians. And what happens when BGs and Americans get together... HORO! It was fun and the food was WONDERFUL. Everyone had a great time and I would love to host again next year.

What was even better was the football game before hand with a hord of children from the school. I felt like we were in a PC magazine. I cannot wait to see the pictures and video. The after party was also fun. There was much home made wine and someone from the village gave me a bottle of champegne. Also, TWISTER! AND a Christmas surprise. Why just celebrate one holiday? Thanks again to Emmy for working so hard on making those stockings and for finding the santa suit. Also to Jesse for wandering my village with an axe looking for Christmas tree to chop down. Luckily the magazine had one for 4 leva. No trees were harmed in the making of this party. It was just a great time. THANKS again to everyone who came and made this possible. I will get picture up soon and hopefully the story from the local newpaper. Being interviewed in BG is difficult as is giving a Thanksgiving speech.. oojas! Anyway, I hope your Turkey Day was just as amazing and that everyone has a great day!

CEO